My DBT therapist has definitively ruled out BPD. That’s two now. I like her a lot. We’re working on ruling in or out BD. There is a lot of laughter (which is important to me), a good flow to the sessions and much synergy. She always gives me homework and says I way overdeliver. She is an overachiever. She thinks I take it to a whole new level. Yep. Story of my life.

She used to be a social worker and knows about a bunch of cool clubs around my area. She’d like me to start building support systems and tribes in my own local area and not as much online. I turned down the birdwatchers group (not my thing) but I do like the ladies who do art while drinking wine. I told her I’ve got a coed book club, coed grief class, 2 ladies who lunch groups, a bible study with 240 women in it, a coed drum circle and the red tent already plus going to the movies once a week and the gym 5 times a week. I don’t know how I could comfortably fit in more but try I will.

She’s warned me that it will all have to be put on a back burner if I pursue my PhD. I’m weighing my options. I do like my various tribes. I figured out through these interactions that I’m not an introvert after all but rather an ambivert. I sit right on the line. Interesting progression as I used to be a very reclusive introvert with social anxiety. I’ve evolved.

I’m slightly ham strung with some of the things I can do because at this time I need to be locked in tight in the house before dark and stay there until it is light in the morning. It restricts your sense of freedom and is quite frustrating. It will become even more restrictive as the days grow short. ADT is in place as are the motion activated spot lights and the ring tone doorbell camera. S is living here now and that is of great comfort to both mom and I. He is a very kind soul to give up his man cave and various other accouterments for as long as it takes to help us out. Two independent Taurus women. My daughter makes a third independent Taurus woman. Poor guy. I’m surprised he doesn’t run out of the house screaming.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day ahead. Much love.