That’s it, I’m done. RS said he feels the tremors while holding my hand and he said yesterday he saw my lips trembling slightly in the grocery store. It’s becoming noticeable to outsiders!!! It will be permanent if I don’t stop, I have no doubt. I also fell again at work. I started to kneel down to help change a student and somehow fell backwards and hit my head on the bathroom door. I fell last week trying to help a student off the floor. When I realized I was falling I had to dive to the right and barrel roll to avoid landing straight on the girl! I can’t be falling all the time, it’s unsafe and I know that that’s also the work of the haldol because I am not this unsteady on my feet usually.

I see a different pdoc for an eval tomorrow. I had set it up before I set up the first eval so I’m going to keep it and see how I like her as compared to the other. She’s not in network unfortunately but if she’s better I’ll just pay the fee, it’s not that much since I’m working. We’ll see.

I would even go back on invega at this point and just go back to the endocrinologist for medicine to counteract the high prolactin. When I was on invega I stayed out of the hospital for 2.5 years! A record.

I’m desperate.

Well tomorrow CR and I have off so at least I get a day to relax. I told him we’ll go out for breakfast or lunch to the diner.