Everything revolved around my husband, in every way. And I became socially isolated. He didn't see friends, so I barely saw friends. I don't even have many local friends, which is what is bothering me right now.

I'm going to have to make a whole new life for myself without him. I don't want to date. I want to heal. I want to go out, socialize with people and be independent.

I am trying to find a new therapist, and that's proving to be difficult. I NEED a new therapist to help me through this.

AND, we're approaching winter. I am worried that I will be lonely and depressed. I think I am already depressed and even that is making me more sad. I can't and won't go back to him, but what am I facing in my present and future seems dark.

I feel very alone.