Thanks again.

That's really amazing that you wrote a whole manuscript. Funny how we do outgrow those feelings and experiences. It's a nice place to be when you realize you've healed enough to move past something. I look forward to the day enough of this is behind me that I no longer feel the need to keep even digital copies.

I transcribed the first two little journals yesterday and shredded one. It was somewhat cathartic. There were some events in there that I didn't remember well (even though it was only 2-3 years ago) and was glad to have the documentation. It was also eye opening as to how many of his behaviors were already full blown at that time. It makes me concerned that maybe he was always that way to some extent and I candy coated it for years. At any rate, I think it's beneficial for my own sake to keep the documentation at this point, in a great many ways, it's extremely relevant as long as I'm dealing with that version of him, Kwim? It's not like it's going to be used against him in any way, but it's self supportive and can be used in my favor. The more I see the pattern, the less of a need I feel to engage in it with him.

It is sort of a relief to think about moving the physical copies out of the house. I just wanted to make sure someone didn't say, "no! Keep the originals for purpose xyz.". I couldn't see a reason to keep the paper copies, and it's kind of a relief to think about them not being there, especially since I'm at a point in life of wanting to minimize my personal possessions.