Mendingmysoul, that sounds wild. You must be quite a survivor.

Do you often find that when you are journaling or story writing that the darndest things will come out? Like your subconscious mind is offering up gifts? Especially when I'm handwriting, but sometimes when typing, something will seemingly appear out of left field. Something I hadn't consciously thought about before, but from then on seems glaringly obvious? Writing in all forms is healing for me too.

Looking back at these old journals is kind of scary and reassuring too. His bad habits were already in effect before he had his Neuro surgery. Nothing has changed, if anything he has gotten worse. My attitude has changed a bit though. I've gone from a place of frustration and wanting to fix whatever was wrong with him to a place of frustration, but not wasting as much energy on his problems. It would be madness for me to keep trying to help him when it clearly doesn't help.