I have been watching/reading porn or doing finding other ways to masturbate since i was about six years old. I was around that age when I first saw my parents having sex and I have been intriuged by it since then. As a kid I would hump my teddy bear and other things and would fantasies about doing it with my baby sitter practically everyday. That hasn't really changed now and I'm 33 and with my fiance and I'm constantly finding outlets of porn or talking with other women even talked a few girls and it got sexual. One almost to actually cheating. I don't think I'd actually follow thru with the cheating but its the thrill of talking about sex or masturbating when I can't have sex with my Fiance. I don't know what i can do to fix it or help abate it since its been going on for years. If there's anything I can do I'd be willing to do it to save my relationship.