I have had such thoughts earlier, but not now. I have come to the conclusion, that life presents us for certain new "doors".
First we are children, teenagers and early grown ups. Along that way there can have been many "doors", different for each one of us, but since we are still alive we have stepped through them wherever they were on the road.
In grown up life some of us took an education, others used their life otherwise. Some married, got divorced or became widowed. Others lived alone all the time, but went through other "doors".
As we grow older, we will be weaker. Some will be sent to a retirement-home, others will be able to live at home (alone). At the retirement home we will not die alone.
It helps me to see death as another door to go through. Since I have been able to go through all the other "doors", why should I not be able to let myself pass through the last "door"?
Of course we will have different views on what happens afterward, some think of heaven while others think it is nothing. Whatever we think about the afterlife or no afterlife, we all have to go through the last "door".
Hope that all understand that I do not want to push my "doors" upon you. If the "door-thought" doesn't attract you, feel free to reject it.
If you on the other hand liked the "door-analogy", feel free to adopt it so that it can be a source of relief to you in this difficult question.
None of us knows when we will die. It can be in an accident at not too old age, while others of us will have to live for a long time.
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Do what you can, with what you have, where you are. Theodore Roosevelt
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