Hello,

I used to come here years ago. I was with a T for 4.5 years with crazy attachment. He very suddenly terminated me in the midst of a crisis.

It was the worst time in my life. Which says a lot as I have been through some ****.

I tried out a few Ts but nothing stuck until my current T. He is great. I didn't feel any attachment to him but he was tremendously helpful. I have been with him about 2.5 years. He does EMDR which Mt exT also poo-pooed on. But it has been so helpful. About a month ago the crazy longing started to come back. Just about the time we were switching from 1x per week to 2x. I shared some really heavy things.

Ok sorry for the long back story. The reason I share this is, this morning I had the most awful dream. I dreamed that I was lying on the ground and he was kicking and kicking me in the stomach and face. His face was so angry. Now the caring face I had in my mind of him is gone and it is now the angry face. My whole body feels frozen and I don't know what to do. Does anyone have any ideas of how to get the good image back? I so bad want to email him but I am afraid I will get in trouble as I am not really supposed to.