I am sorry to hear that your mom was not nice.It has been baffling to me that a parent can do insidious stuff to their own child.As a child I used to think certain people's brains belong to a lab and some kind of anomaly should be discovered.Now as an adult I know about personality disorders and other clusters.I am thankful for the awareness I have now.A lot of my past experiences make sense now.Please take care of yourself.Hugs.