My husband's still away, but will return tonight. I'll be relieved. Last night I forgot my evening meds until late. I didn't get to sleep until 3 am and had an extra anxious feeling.

I've had intermittent GI issues for a while. From September 20 to 27 it was very severe and I never went to the GP. Then it eased, so again no follow-up on it. Some days (or parts of a day) I have it again. I'm assuming it's related to stress, but perhaps it could be something else or something else, too. I feel and think I look like I've lost weight. There is a scale here at our rental, but the batteries are dead. My scale is in a box 40 mins away. Maybe when we stay at my s-i-l's house I can use hers. Or find batteries. I feel I've eaten enough not to lose weight. Who knows. I often have a cognitive distortion with this.

I think I look awful. My hair has the graying roots and is scraggly and frizzy, put up in a pony tail and unwashed for ages. My husband said the shower downstairs doesn't drain right. Washing my hair there would cause a plumbing emergency. Upstairs is an awkward bathtub with no curtain or glass enclosure and only the typical European hand held shower head, which is especially awkward. When I had a WhatsApp with my family, my brother made a teasing remark about my hair. He didn't mean any harm, but I am self conscious about it. Afterwards I asked Hubby "Does my hair look THAT bad?" He responded that it doesn't, but I think he's being kind or sees me through rose-colored glasses. This should be a motivator for action, but it's not.

We started looking for a GP and psychiatrist for me. Ain't easy! I'm on the waiting list at one place (pdoc) and we'll call a couple others on Monday. I may need to travel all the way to the city, but even there they are scarce. Obviously the GP would be good to get. As well as a dentist, a gynecologist, and a nephrologist. Ugh! Right now I feel like crying, but I'm in my usual "tight fist" state, which I know is unhealthy. I have kept the house neat and tidy. That's one good thing.