IG, I'm sorry that you went through that with your mom. That must've been a very frightening thing for you to go through as well as painful.

However, this isn't about my mom. It's about heartbreak. Loving somebody unconditionally with all my heart and having it squashed. I'm tired of rejection and being abandoned. It hurts way too much and I still have all this love for him. It's not going to go away and it's not wanted. I'm unlovable in that way. This is proof. My heart has been crushed into a million pieces.