I am so sorry you are hurting so much @Forest33. I would want to sleep, too... in fact, I do but for my own reasons... it's a form of escapism for me. Life can seem so utterly unbearable at times that I just have to get away.

I wish I could say something that would make you feel better, but I am afraid that it might come off as a platitude.

I truly hope today was a better day for you... keep coming back. There is also the emotional support chatroom which is apart from the coffeehouse chatroom. Also, I believe it's this Thursday the 13th around 6:30 or 7 New York time* there will be a moderated chat for depression and anxiety. I hope you join in, even if you don't chat, just come and hang out with us. (*it's in the calendar on the left-side of the homepage.)

(((((((((((( Hugs )))))))))))