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Originally Posted by Sunflower123
I am a people pleaser and I’m very good at it. The person that I’m not pleasing is myself. I don’t know the status of the relationships in my life right now. Neither do I care. I have a good friend who always tells me like it is. I can’t even turn to him right now. I’ve withdrawn too far into myself at this time. Am I safe? No. What I am is tired and weary. Tired of pretending. Tired of being the broad shoulders that everyone counts on. Tired of being the nice one. Always. If I could I would just leave and start over fresh out of state. Alone. I’m so very, very tired. I think some peace and quiet in the mountains will do me some good. I’m not going to meet M. I just asked to be left alone. A dark night of the soul for sure. I’m not taking anything that would not be in my best interest as I don’t trust myself at this time.
I’ll either work through it or I won’t. I’ll either be back or I won’t. I do sincerely appreciate all the support I’ve received here. I think as a group you are truly phenomenal. Please take care.
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Any chance you can take a vacation?Go to the woods and spend some time in nature. Take a book, rent a cabin, get a tent or borrow one, relax with the solitude. make a camp fire if you are so inclined.
bring your phone but turn it off. that way you have it for emergencies.
Even if it is just for a day or weekend. It is time to take care of yourself.
Bring simple things to eat fresh fruits and veggies that you can eat easily.
Make a vow of silence for a day or the whole weekend.
Have you ever journaled? It is a great way to get down on paper how you are doing. Have you ever meditated? That is a way to center yourself. What about a hike in the mountains or woods.I am sure there are trails that you could walk if you are able..
I am worried about you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi