I need to have a chat conversation with my cousin who has had cancer before to get her information for my genetics counseling appointment that is later this week. I don't want to. I didn't realize this until I left therapy and can't talk about it more. I just haven't told almost anyone about my breast biopsies, surgery or very elevated risk. I found a support group for high-risk women and I can't even post anonymously there. I don't know why it's so big for me to share this but it is. And my cousin is wonderful but I'm not ready to have that conversation yet. I have a few days before genetic counseling so hopefully I'll feel more like it tomorrow.