Mind over matter must exist. Today I felt about as depressed as ever. I told my plant goodbye, went to bed feeling so strongly I would never wake up. While laying down I heard a voice say, "You will be purged." Immediately after hearing that I started sneezing, again, and again. It must have been at least 20 times. After awhile I woke up but I could my heart wasn't beating. That made me very happy thinking it was true I would end. I drifted off to sleep again and woke up feeling my heart wasn't beating. That happened a few more times, but I never ended.
What continued was the sneezing, every half hour an attack hit me like crazy. That was about 8 hours ago and the sneezing attacks are still happening but not as intense. Besides that I feel my normal self again. Just the normal depression. The all time low depression is gone. I was purged.