<font color="purple">It's not that I'm not willing to change- but it gets very hard for me to talk during sessions, and it's just weird for it to be silent when I know there should be something to talk about.
And it really doesn't help that every time I talk about something, it allways falls under her umbrella of "stuff you are going through because you are a teenager" sure, it's a pretty legit answer, it's a logical answer, and heck, it's probably the real answer...but it makes me feel kind of invalidated, like everything I'm talking about it being brushed off.
And to quote, she said something along the lines of (after I attimited how I felt like I didn't belong in therapy and that most of my problems have been resolved) "Yes, I agree with you, I was thinking to myself just looking at you today 'she doesn't need to be in here' you are a very bright girl (etc.)" I guess for a T her brain to mouth control isn't that great, or maybe she was just oblivious as to the effect it has on my insecurities of even being in therapy.
I'm going to give her a break though because I havn't been saying alot because it's hard to talk. I guess everything I've been saying so far would lead her to believe that I'm a-okay minus the prevalient teen drama.
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