I was planning to go on a longer ride on my bike than usual. It's been a while since I've taken a longer ride. But now the weather is wet and not appealing. Oh well.

I've been feeling down a whole lot lately. Maybe it's because I'm going through some minor griefs. The griefs are loses I've experienced that have been caused by me and it makes me feel horrible. I let go of the only friend I had and then cancelled a trip. It all happened at once.

Another thing with me is I feel like I'm putting forth efforts to better my life and self. I'm coming up empty in my efforts. It's like I'm coming up to bat and striking out all of the time. It seems like other people I'm seeing are doing OK but maybe they're not.