that's true, i don't think i made a bigger mistake in my life

the most devastating thing about the whole situation is the whole outcome, i really don't know what's going on in her life, i don't know what was she doing in the last 5 years. and i will probably never see her again and that's depressing. i want to talk with her once more, i want to see her smile once again, i want to say sorry to her for anything inappropriate i did to her, i want to help her with anything she needs, but i just can't