I miss doing dream work with you. Even more I miss the wild, wandering, adventurous dreams I used to have when we were in the thick of things. My dreams here lately are only snippets of things like the other night the purse dream, that was more than I usually remember anymore which bums me out. Man, I had some good ones back in the day!! Remember the ones that took up a full typed page? Yeah, I miss those ones. And the ones that you were in were always interesting.

Maybe I'll get out my box of dream journals this weekend and read through some of them, might stir up the ol' dream-maker and induce some dream time activity.

I'm feeling a little better again today than I was yesterday, so that's good. I had a meeting with my sup yesterday at work and I told her what was going on and she let me talk about it for a little bit, which was helpful. Showing up authentically does not come naturally to me, having grown up in a household where appearances were everything, but I'm learning. I mean you know how long it took me to be authentic with you. Showing up that way around my family, my boss, etc is hard but yes, practice makes possible. I won't say perfect cuz that I'll never be.

btw, it's almost 10 months now since my last session and yep, I still love you. I don't expect that will ever change. It's weird too, I want to hold onto the version of you that lives in my head that I can talk to about stuff and know what you would say... keep that, but somehow let go of 'outside my head' you, living-breathing-in-the-real-world you. That's a trick I don't know how to pull off.