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Originally Posted by AzulOscuro
Yes, exactly the same. My lack of self-esteem and confidence made me always to hide and going apart from people. So, I was only comfortable with few people I knew weren’t going to judge me.
And now that I’m pretty a new person, I see that I can be myself in many situations and with much more people than before, nonetheless, I still have a long way to run.
I think that I’m gonna get it by giving to myself more chances to experience more social situations.
I’m still a bit confused as to why I can’t engage with others. On one side, I don’t want to force them to be with me (fear of rejection-I guess), on the other side I don’t want to fail them (screw things up if I can’t respond as I guess I should).
As you can see for the ideas I’m now expressing, I’m still confused. But, I’m gonna give myself time to get the answer, if I can someday find it.
The good thing is that meanwhile, I’m having experiences and going out of my shell.
I praise myself for the path walked because just one year ago, I was into my last depression and had lost any hope.
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I identify a lot with this. If we think about the possibility of failing others by not responding as perfectly as we think we should have, perhaps it’s helpful to think how would we feel if someone didn’t respond perfectly to us? It’s likely we’d forgive them, that we understand that they are not perfect.
You are wise to look at the progress you have made, and allowing yourself to make mistakes along the way.
I myself find progress often to be forward then a little in reverse. That’s okay - we’re human.