I did it again. I just let me ex-friend back into my life. He seems happy to be back with me. One good reason why I got back together with him was because I felt like I'm in trouble. The one thing he's always been good at is being able to make me feel better when troubles come my way. It's hard for me to deal with difficulties alone.

I felt bad when I heard the jets taking off from the airport this morning because it could have be me on board. As of now it's kind of a good thing I didn't leave home because something has come up all of a sudden and I feel that I should be here to take care of it. At least it's better to feel bad about myself cancelling the trip and taking care of what I have to than to have gone away and have disaster happen, or find out something disastrous happened when I get home and have to deal with it.