I can relate to your fear, though my abusers were particulary violent and threatening, so I stayed quiet. I wish I had not. I wish I had spoken up sooner.

What you have been through is frightening enough, even without the problems you face now of being forced into a confrontation of sorts with an abuser before you felt ready. I am sorry you are going through this too. But I really encourage you to work to find as much safety and security as you can right now. Don't dismiss your fears as "irrational." You deserve to feel safe, even if no one thinks you're in "real" danger. Find family and friends you can stay with or can stay with you if that helps. Things like that. Ask the police to pass by and check on you. Just knowing people are looking out for you may help.

For what it is worth, I've done a lot of research into this and the abuser is not likely to commit an act of violence against you when they were not violent before. But still do what you need to do to feel safer. You deserve to create that for yourself.

Hope this helps.

mtd