I have so much regret and frustration when I think about the past. But I've also started getting over it a bit. I guess it's been long enough.


Try to believe that something so terrific will happen to you, you wouldn't erase the past even if you could, because all those mistakes and all that pain got you that amazing something.


Also, try not to give the past so much weight. Last time I was home (my parents' house, I mean) and clearing out my old things, I came upon a box of old letters and photos from an especially painful time. I just looked at them, wondering why I had held onto them so long. I faced the fact that even if I hold onto them my whole life, when I'm gone, they're going in the garbage. So why not throw them in the garbage a little sooner and just be rid of them? Which I did.