@unaluna, everyone knows that we both see the same music, so I don't think I will look nuts by continuing to do what I like to do. But that being said, I will also find other outlets for myself.
As it is, I may move out of state in 7-8 months for a complete change of scenery.

@divine1966, agreed!

Today I am just feeling very emotional and raw. I will feel better tomorrow, I am sure.