I do know what you mean. I remember so many times I committed to something as a kid or young adult, and even back then I knew I would regret it. Then I totally flaked out and left people in the lurch, and there was always this sense of just watching the whole thing happen in slow motion. I didn't have any ill intentions, it was just some problem I had with organization or planning my time or biting off more than I could chew or being too shy to take responsibility for things, or something... To this day, so many years later, every time I agree to do something, I have this feeling of dread and I remember all those times when I was young and dropped the ball.


But you can't stop eating just because you're afraid of choking. You have to believe that you've learned things since you were younger, that you know yourself better and won't repeat the same mistakes. As long as you're open about your concerns and ask for help if you feel things are going wrong, you'll be OK.