I hope you are right, that I'll be okay. Thank you for your kind words. The thing is that my intent was malicious back in the day. I was filled with rage to the brim, I needed the world to burn. Restoring my faith in myself is not the easies task I ever set upon to do. Also a part of me thinks I deserve to suffer. But yes, I'll keep eating and we'll see... maybe one day I can be good and trust I won't turn.