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Old Jun 01, 2008, 09:23 PM
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Your T dilemma reminds me of when I worked at the Pentagon and had a boss looking all over for me and I was in another room "binding" notebooks or something at a special machine and he finally finds me and asks, "Where were you?" and I explain I was over there, then the other place, then here. His response was, "No you weren't!" and it really confused heck out of me because I believed him for a moment and doubted myself. I knew where I was but he's the boss and says I wasn't there. . .

I would think it would be even worse if you didn't know if you'd done something or not, only felt you may have. It's like a double-bind; do you believe your feelings and tell him his reassurances are out of line or do you not believe yourself and your feelings (which screws you because they're essentially all you have, being "you" and what you're trying to learn about and how to use) and totally lose your bearings having to rely on someone outside yourself to teach you about you.

And it does seem pretty precipitous of him to instantly deny your wrong-doing without exploring your feelings and ideas at all. It is logical that you didn't do anything wrong, but as you say, that doesn't help you figure out why you have this feeling and what to do with such feelings when you get them!

I'd learn some stock phrases for such situations with him such as, "Well then, why do I feel this way!" and see if you can get conversations going about the feeling. I'd be tempted to get a bit sarcastic and give a laugh with a, "thank you all-seeing one for your opinion on my life and what I may or may not have done in the past" and see if I couldn't get him to back-pedal a bit and admit to having taken a wrong tack.
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