You mentioned, in one of your previous posts, you had seen a new counselor (mental health therapist?) She came off as abrasive and you found the interview challenging. Hopefully, if you're not continuing to see her, you'll keep trying. It can take a few tries to find the right therapist. (Not every therapist works well with every client.) It sounds to me, from what you wrote, that finding a therapist you "click" with may be the best way to get to the bottom of what's going on here. As I think I mentioned in a previous reply I wrote to one of your posts, being alone without friends can, over time, become a habit (IMHO.) It can get to the point where one simply prefers to be alone. At least that's the way it's become for me. So I hope you can find a way to figure out why it is those in your life keep leaving you. Best wishes...