I can't live anymore with all this constant chaos in my brain and chaos in my life. I can't keep up with it. It's too much for me. Constant changes, every day, all these different moods, some extremely scary, especially lately. My mind is starting to go to very dark places with very definite thoughts. Somebody please tell me how to stop it. It's killing me and it's killing relationships in my life. I've tried just about every drug out there, nothing is working, if anything I'm getting increasingly worse. My life is being destroyed as well as any relationships I have/had. I can't do this anymore. It's too much for me to handle, it's way too hard. It's out of control. It's taken over my life. When I feel loved, it all settles down but as soon as I don't, the chaos comes back with a vengeance. I have to end this chaos before it ends me. Somebody PLEASE HELP ME!!!

Beam me up Scotty!!!