Hi All,
I am looking for some advice on things I have seen happening with me lately, where I am wondering if these are all responses to my separation and ongoing divorce.
To briefly summarize, I am currently undergoing a divorce... from a husband of a little more than 10 years. Full details in my other posts so I wont take up vital space in explaining again

For the most part, I was under the impression that I was dealing with this life change quite okay.. except for the feeling of loneliness every now & then.

But lately I have seen myself reacting in ways that are totally alien to me. Certain situations have made me act & react in ways that I have never done before, nor am I proud of now. I have lashed out at people who did not deserve it. I did & said some things after a few drinks, that I have never done in my life before (not even after drinking a lot).

And now I am wondering why am I behaving this way. It is making me despise myself for the most part. Scared of losing people that I have around me because of the way I have reacted.
I seem to take everything personally & negatively. And then spend the rest of the day despising myself.

Why is this happening? And what should I do to make sure I do not do this again.

Love,
Sushi