kiya,... i am so glad she called you back... i know how hard it is to trust change... i was pretty good yesterday... but today is kind of a struggle... i am trying to replace the false messages that seem to be so powerful sometimes....

it's my fault~ the truth is i have made mistakes... but not everything is my fault
just cut you have a good excuse right now~ the truth is i want to cut, but if i do it will send me backwards and will only give more power to the things i want to take my power back from
you heal well ~ the weather is cool~ this might be your last chance... the truth is i do heal well, but i know the scars are there, i can see them and feel the regret when i look at them
you are a failure~ i have failed at times, but i am not a failure.
healing happens for others, but you are to "stupid" to figure it out ~ the truth is i am not stupid... healing is different for everyone.
life is never going to get better... your in constant pain... no one has the right to force you to live like this~ the truth is life is hard... but if i give in to these thoughts i would shut the door to any chance of things improving...lyn