Does anyone else have this fear? I am constantly afraid that I will cross a boundary of my T’s and she will not be able to stand me any longer. I pushed her too much-too many emails (which she allows), and in general just being needy.

I wrote my T an email on Saturday, to which she didn’t reply to. It had no subject line, so I wonder if maybe it went to spam? I don’t even know if her email (a secure acct) does spam. Anyway, I was still feeling terrible yesterday, and super anxious about my dental procedure, so I emailed
her again.

She replied today to the one I wrote yesterday, telling me to use my grounding skills and try and stay in the present.

I don’t know exactly what triggered it, but I am 100% convinced I am going to go in there on Friday and she’s going to tell me I contact her too much, therefore I AM too much.

I know the answer is to talk to her about it, but that absolutely terrifies me. It makes me entirely too vulnerable, and if I am sending too many emails or am too needy in some way, I will be devastated.