There are a few things that make getting help difficult.
1, talking about castration would be very uncomfortable, or even bringing it up.
2, I've been on so many medications, and on 3 now, that it'd be hard to know where to start.
3, we're getting tight on money, since ONE of the pills is $300+, and my mom just lost her job...

I don't know... I wish I could just like snap out of it... Because it's constantly there, tho I supress it well, until one thing triggers it. Then I withdraw, stop talking, my leg starts twitching, and my mind races.
It's really started to affect my relationship with my girlfriend too...

(still don't have time to type what I want!)