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Old Oct 18, 2022, 06:16 PM
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100%. Awesome T picked up on it the very first session and mentioned it but didn't push... more noticed it out loud. We have had a couple weeks in four years where I have not contacted him outside of session, we have gone through spells where it has been every day and long, times of short ones here and there... and even a couple of times where he was thinking of me and sent me a quick email.
4 years and every time I ask him to hold my hand or ask for a hug I worry that it is going to be that one time too much.
And... when I don't ask... somewhere just before the end of the session he will get this smirk... mischievous, loving, knowing, smart @ss smirk... and ask when I am going to ask for a hug.

Now we are ending therapy and I am counting those treasured moments that make me fear I am too much... how many hugs are left, how much time, how many emails... 5 hugs, 5 hours, ?? emails.

Both T and I know where it comes from, when it got cemented in hard... neither of us know what it will take for the feeling to go away. But... 4 years and never too much. T has even agreed to stay in touch to some degree after we end.

He has good boundaries and to him I have never been too much... not once in 4 years have I been too much for him... and tomorrow when I get to his office and want a hug I will still wonder... is THIS the too much hug. AND I know he will smile and eagerly hug me and it will all be OK
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