I've been sick 45 years and have had tons of diagnoses and I haven't had much relief. And I've been hospitalized for depression over 25 times and tried tons of medication including ECT. I've never been delusional nor been psychotic (I believe). (My anxiety is almost psychotic.) I haven't felt like myself since I was 13. My problems haven't gone away which is why I think I'm schizophrenic. I'm not very productive and been on disability 20 years. How would I know if I have schizophrenia?