Hugs, Omers. I'm sorry you've had such a difficult week. I agree that your H is in the wrong. And I'm very sorry about your mother--I hope it isn't the C word.

You said that the goals will have to wait this week--I assume you mean you had specific goals to achieve in your last 5 sessions? I'm wondering if that's putting too much pressure on you, to think "I need to achieve x in these 5 weeks." Could you maybe decide to put those goals aside and just your time together in whatever way feels right in the moment?

And are you considering switching to another T? I think you mentioned finances being an issue in another thread, but even if it's just someone you could see, say, biweekly for a couple months to help you transition away from your T and therapy in general? Or could you potentially see this T for an occasional virtual session if needed? Not sure if anything in person will be possible in the future (trying to recall what you said in the other thread--I know it won't be for a while). Then it may feel less like a final "good-bye," so a bit less pressure (even though I know virtual isn't the same as in-person).

I do hope today is helpful and that he can give you the support you need.