I have taken lots of anti-psychotic medication in the 1990's in the hospital. I'm not really sure why. (And they did nothing to me.) Like I said my anxiety has almost been psychotic. I've never been paranoid. I've taken stelazine, thorazine, haldol and clozaril and they just gave me horrible side effects. Sometimes my thoughts give me lots of conflict in my head. Like my thoughts are battling it out and I can't sort them out. My problems started at 13 when I started dissassociating badly and I didn't feel anything around me. Therapy hasn't helped me, my therapist never told me how to manage my anxiety. In 1993 I spent 4 mths in the hospital in bed and no relief. I'm going to Johns Hopkins today to get a good evaluation. Yesterday I told my Dr. that I think I'm schizophrenic and he said nothing.