Thank you, Lost

About the insurance: for part of the year until I reach my out of pocket maximum, I pay part of the fee and the insurance covers the rest. After I reach my out of pocket maximum, I pay zero and my insurance pays the whole bill. T gets paid the same either way, just who does the paying shifts partway through the year for me.

Ideally her brother would have waited until she was finished with my session before interrupting her and telling her about the daughter. The daughter fell a few days ago so this was like, going back to the doctor, not the first trip. But once she knew about the daughter going to the Emergency Room, she couldn't concentrate on me. I get it. Your daughter is hurt. You want to go and comfort her and be there for her and whatever else parents are supposed to do. (She is grown and does not live with my T just for clarification.) I get that I am second priority when it comes to stuff like that.

Just the timing sucked. I'm trying to hold myself together today but it feels like I'm holding myself together with scotch tape and not duct tape.

I don't know if another T would be better. I just know I can't leave. I'm like trauma bonded or something. I don't even understand myself. My head does see red flags but the heart won't hear of it. When she is 100% she is great. But when she's not, she really sucks as a T.

She texted me today to update me about her daughter. Not one question about how I was doing. Petty to think that way, I know. But sigh. It is what it is I suppose.

HUGS Kit