Dear T,
Thanks for being accepting about yet more TMI (from my perspective) bodily functions talk. And for focusing on why it is that I feel certain things that normal parts of being human make me "gross." Your question regarding how D pooped and I changed plenty of diapers when she was a baby--and did I find her to be gross because of that? That's really resonating with me.

I feel I must have gotten these messages from my parents to keep quiet about such things and...hm, I guess feel shame about them? We didn't mention the "S"-word today, but I'm realizing now how this feels like shame. Shame from completely natural functions (and malfunctions!) of my body. You're right that I need to be able to talk about them.

Also, it meant a lot when you said "Feel better" as you shook my hand at the end. It hit on multiple levels, including how I felt like I was making a big deal about something that people deal with all the time. But you were validating about it. And also how I said that H tends to not check in with how I'm doing or mention it later (or even remember, in some cases, that I wasn't feeling well). But more the first part.

Love,
LT