Thanks Una.

I'm not sure exactly how your response helps me to sort out how I feel but I appreciate you taking the time to write it.

Thank you Comrade. I do dread the idea of being selfish. I am generally a generous person and it feels bad/shameful to be selfish. I'm sure some of it is my religious upbringing but maybe one day I will get around to working on it in therapy.

Thank you LT. Thank you for your kind words. T did mention rescheduling. Although she said she was pretty full Wednesday and Thursday, although I have a feeling she cancelled today's session to be with her daughter. Just what I gleaned from the text message. Thanks for the hugs as well.

Rive, thank you. It feels less and less like a professional relationship. Although I have had a lot of therapy so I should know red flags when I see them, for some reason it is hard to break away.

Thank you Scarlet.

HUGS all, Kit