The thing is I don't want to have someone to always take care of me it makes me feel sad I wish I could get a better functioning brain. This memory issues is so scary I feel like a dementia patient at times. Just robbed me of a bubbly personality and my confidence. I fear for my future I prayed for healing and then to help me psychologically. My mum says they've done little for me I can feel her pain when she fears for my future. I almost don't want to think of the things I could be missing out on. I grieve because I want children and a partner but I am not independent enough would I be like codependent on them? I'm already codependent on my mum. When I think of my future it is too upsetting to think. I just feel like yeah I got these problems right but in all those years what kind of help has these robbing bastards done for me. Other than to take my money and just supremely **** me over. It's easier for me to be swept up in emotion my life is complicated and I long for simplicity. I wonder how a healthy baby can have such a damaged memory all from childhood trauma and yeah the PTSD isn't even the stuff they talk about just the freaking add. As if putting me on meth makes me feel any better. These are the professionals telling me but I know it's the PTSD and the blocked suppressed memory's that are holding me back. Still in this freaking country you have to beg and pine and they still take your ****ing arm off with the amount of money they charge to give you nothing. I should sue the professionals that robbed me of my money especially that autism doctor that scammed me out of money. I don't have faith in these people they only care about there pocket nothing was ever done for my benefit so I hate psychologists and psychiatrists they can burn in hell for ****ing me over and leaving me disabled and fearful.