Ugh! I have to stop picking up the phone now.. he has started calling me instead of texting me. He gets me on the phone, and says things like, I just want to say one thing. And then he goes into a diatribe about us and how sorry he is that he insulted me in our fights. He is trying to make amends, and I hate him! I despise him! He has stolen five years of my life from me and I resent him for all that he has done to me. I am still angry. I am not healed. I am in recovery.

Last night I went off on him after one such phone call. I wrote that contact needs to be minimal now. And I got angry, listing all the things he has done to me in the past five years. I told him that his apology is less important than never doing it at all in the first place.

He's like a parasite that I cannot get rid of - they force you to do drastic things in order to get them out of your life. He has no respect and no regard for my personal happiness and space, and I know this.

I am not picking up the phone when he calls. He can text me, and I will take my time in replying.