I am in a situation where technically i should be medically concerned and get checked out. however, that kind of exam is far too triggering for me. i do have just a regular visit next week but i am afraid and i can't say it - can't tell my md. sadly, i told t in an email... and forgot that t will most likely tell md... they "work closely together" and now are not even separated by buildings any more. really scared.
i can't possibly tell them.
i can't let them do an exam.
if i stay silent.... and it is cancer....
i can't
i can't
it's not cancer. i won't let it be.