Hugs Velcro, I'm so sorry you are going through this difficulty. If I can just throw an alternative viewpoint, from a therapist, out there... Sometimes, in therapy, it is necessary for a T to foster dependency. For the client to get attached, when they may not have done so as a child. In time, this attachment becomes less intense, as safety is believed/felt. Then the plan is that the clients learns how to detach in a healthy way.

It's not an easy process, that's for sure but personally I found it incredibly healing to allow myself to lean into the attachment. To learn to trust my therapist and learn to believe that I wasn't too much. That, in fact, if she ever wasn't able to meet my needs, that was because she wasn't enough. Not in a derogatory way, but just the opposite of me being too much.

It took time, lots of time, and lots of 'testing' and lots and lots of patience and reassurance and honesty from my T, but we did get there. Absolutely I still feel some attachment to her, otherwise I wouldnt have found her leaving so hard, but it's not like it was at the beginning. It's really different.

I just wanted to say that the uncertainty and the fear and the worry are all part of the process, of this type of work, I think, not that that helps you really. It certainly won't make it going away! I just womdrred if it might give you a little hope, and to know that you aren't alone in feeling the way you do.

Take lots of care