it's like being on the beam ... on the right spot ... something I was not consistent with as many things in life threw me for a loop.

being distracted, and even disoriented at times, heart-broken, or struggling to get through one thing after another, i feel i missed the mark more times than not.
one struggle after another was the proof. i'd see others lives less affected than mine, and it scared me. things were difficult, and overwhelming for quite a few years for me.

my timing was off so bad, do to the problems i had, that by the time i figured things out or could get things squared away to actually be in a position to do something - i'd missed the opportunity already.

that's how i see my timing in the past.

thankfully, now i have less responsibility, less contact with disruptive people, and my ill mother who did great harm to my life personally, has passed away ... so i've created a safe haven from where i can do what i can handle - and not take on what i cannot, for whatever reason.

my timing is improving because i am now able to make things happen - instead of missing the boat, i'm steering it.

i still make mistakes, but my timing i am accountable for now, as i am no longer a victim to others, or circumstances, or my own disability.

i feel more empowered, and am a more cautious person, able to think things all the way thru, so i can shot a game of pool the way it needs to be played, and be a better partner or competitor in the game, and reliable where i will come through with the shots, that is ... unless the unexpected comes up ... and if i'm having a bad day, i'll take a raincheck.

that's my timing thing.

peace and love,
night




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