CNS - Thank you too!

I'm supposed to talk to L this afternoon, but she'll probably be calling me this morning because I emailed her and left her a voicemail. I see her next on Monday.

We actually do have time for arrangements. Once again, I was catastrophizing. My emotions were reacting as if it was happening now. I apologize. It's just going to be such a hard time for me, and the longest L will be away since I've been with her.

I do have other coping skills. I don't know why I'm not using them. I have a whole list L and I put together. Partially I think it's because I'm not used to using them, and another part of me didn't want to use them. I haven't SH'ed in over 7 years, and yet my mind still goes there immediately when triggered.