Things are all ****ed up and I'm traveling between families homes right now. My old city sent the stuff to the new city and it's lost now. Meanwhile we need a place by January. I look calm and collected but I'm a mess inside. I've decided no matter how disabled I truly am I need to start making moves to work at least part time. But it's not like I'm well enough to. Hell I need do something. I can't deal with this. Thank you all for thinking of me. I think about you guys a lot. I'm sorry I'm not on more. Lots of hugs.