Hi everyone who is reading this far....

I did talk to T on Saturday. She texted me around 1 or 1 30 PM saying we could talk that night at six if I was up to it. So I took her up on it since I wanted to talk to her. It wasn't as helpful as a session because the crisis had passed. I managed not to spiral, and do more self harm to myself, and I managed to stay very in tact and not dissociate a bunch. T told me I could be a T. I said, oh no, I'd leave that up to the professionals. She said that I don't know how professional I am. I don't know what that means.

I'm very tired today but I did have a good Sunday which was my self care day. I stayed home from Church and slept instead. Then food shopping with Dad and we went to a chocolate store and the pet store. I got my favorite chocolate. Yum. Then watched lots of football and read some out of my new theology book. It was a good day.

I won't be meeting with T this week unless something works out on a Saturday. We'll see. Otherwise it will be the 1st before we talk. I can always text or email but I tend not to. It drives me crazy when she doesn't text back. So I try to reduce the crazy making on myself. She did update me again about her daughter, who is doing fine now. And I can't really remember what we talked about. She wanted to know if I knew what I was going to talk to Pdoc about I was like, nope. I'm just going to talk to him and say that things were going pretty well except for one slip up. I need to get him back to every three months because he is hard to afford for every other month.

Thank you all for your replies. HUG kit