Rem, you are so able to express your heart fearlessly, you bowl me over. I've really come to cherish our mutual admiration society. LOL.

Your heart isn't locked up, look at the expressions you make here. But the retreat from pain is very real. Confusion is difficult in the trasitory spaces like you are in currently. But your "love" is separate from all of that, and you are maintaining it well in my humble estimation.

I hope this thread continues to hold your interest. Your input is wonderful.

You said, "Thanks for lifting me up again." I wonder if you can possibly imagine how that expression lifts me up? That, my dear friend, is the nature of love. You need no education in love, perhaps your struggle is only in separating the emotions from the fact of love's ongoing expression which thrives inside you. ?