Checking in real quick. I had to completely stop cogentin because I couldn’t focus my eyes. Well the restlessness is out of control now. It’s causing intense anxiety. Propranolol calms it to tolerable but I’m reticent to take it. According to my Apple Watch my resting heart rate is around 65 every day now. Not sure why it’s so low. It’s not in a dangerous range, that’s below 60, but it’s so close I’m nervous to take a drug that can lower it further.

I just want off this terrible drug. RS can still feel the tremor and the PT asked me if I had one so she saw it. My tongue is jumping all over the place. I don’t know if my mouth is still moving but I bet it is. I don’t know what to do. I have an appt with another new pdoc tomorrow and she’s in the same practice as my old one so I really hope she actually listens to me unlike the other one.

Anyway other than that things are good. I’m still enjoying my job. I had to take an extra long break because of anxiety, I had to wait until the propranolol kicked in or else I couldn’t have gone back. I’m so glad that a) I’m not hourly so I don’t have to clock in and out and b) I have a really flexible and understanding teacher and coworker so if I need extra time I can take it. That will really help me.

There’s an illness rolling through the classroom again though. One kid was out for four days last week, one was absent today, and three more are snotty and sneezing/coughing. I swear the first kid had covid, he had a fever and a horrible cough as well as gastrointestinal symptoms which are common in kids. But it could have just been a cold combined with a stomach bug I guess. All I know is I’m washing my hands every time I touch a kid for any reason lol.